though a smile conceals my sorrows like makeup,
but when you look into my eyes,
you'll see hell breaking lose within me.



when people ask me if im okay
how could i say im not alright?
the person'll just stay in shock
of course i'll brush it off with "im alright"
cause i know you wouldn't console me
& i dont want to hope so much that you'll care about me
i'll just be left even more dejected



i guess i shocked the class yesterday
well, i shocked myself too
i used to hold it in,
tell my story with a smile to reassure the audience
but my bottled feelings just simply exploded
i really dont know why...



you asked if i was okay
hell, i was embarrassed to cry infront of you
man, all i wanted to say was that i aint okay
and hoped that you would pull me into ur embrace
but i know that'll never happen
all i could do was nod...



damn, why did i cry infront of the whole class.
i thought i could control my feelings well...
my voice just started cracking up and tears clouded my eyes
i managed to control my feelings in the 5 years of living with only my mum
but then another problem came up and my only source of comfort left me,
and i handled it for almost 2 years...
WHY!
gah i feel so pathetic
people dont dare to talk to me now
as if i'll burst into tears at the spot
sigh...



tell me that ur concern was sincere,
tell me that you wanna console me
tell me that you want to take me in your arms,
& kiss thsoe tears away...
damn, i should stop dreaming.



well, now the whole class know about my life...
why im so introverted
why i always keep things to myself.
cause im afraid of getting hurt,
i built a shell around myself
keep my heart safe in the enclosed space
but although how hard it was to build it
it was so easy to break..



gah,
i just really wanna have a good long cry
in sombody's arms
someone who would console me and tell me its alright
someone who would make my life worthwhile...



i hope desperately that the words you say were meant for me
i wished the person who stole ur heart was me.
i wanted you to say you love me...

im tired.
im tired of waiting for something that'll never happen
i think too highly of myself.

if i said i love you,

would you love me back?

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Turning Away

You said you cared
You wanna be there
But you're messing with my heart
When everybody comes around
We're suddenly apart

So tell me where it’s going
Cuz I’m about to walk away
I would turn around if you asked me to stay

You just dont understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby I'm walking away

I dont know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When we're out, we're out together
But today you didn’t call
Last night really happened, boy
And again you made me fall

And how can you just do this?
It’s like I’m not even there
How hard could it be?
Just pretend like you care

You just don’t understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby, I’m walking away

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When I look into your eyes
I get this feeling
And I know it could be so right
Just want to be what's in your heart
I don’t care as long as I’m with you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

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