you say you're suffering in hk.
but what you don't know is that i cry myself to sleep everyday.
dont think you are so 伟大.
u dont even know how i feel.
fine.
i dont want anything anymore.
you dont know
home dont even feel like home anymore.
its almost a living hell.
why else would i try to not go home so early?
you think i got so much $ to spend
go out everyday
have fun?

do you think i study cause i like it?
do you think i scrimp and save for myself?
no,
you dont know all these.
i study for YOU.
so that i can get a good job and u can come back to SG and have a better life.
i scrimp and save,
not to use on myself,
but to give it to you when you do not have enough money.
but you always think of it as nothing
im just that childish ignorant selfish and bad tempered girl to you.

i would not have shouted that u treat my cousin better than you treat your own daughter,
if you didnt push me to my limits.
i've had enough.
sometimes i really wish to sleep
forget all these troubles.
i had never had a proper sleep for years
do you know that?
NO.
sometimes i even wish i wasent alive.
sec 3 stress is piling up
i chose triple sci not cause i want to learn
but it was for you.
you think i wanted to torture myself?
maybe yeah,
it keeps my mind off all these.
so i would not think wildly and abuse myself again.
i am not that little miss goody two shoes.
i may be the worst kid you ever knew.
but thats casue i've changed
what you did to me change me
im nolonger the charlene you knew
you loved,
you whatever.

in your eyes,
there's only clarence
you said i was so much more demanding than him.
yeah
whatever
he's the good kid.
cause he's the smart ass
im the dumb idiot.
whatever
i dont want to care so much
but all you guys do is keep pushing responsibilities to me.
just over a phone,
u say im uncaring
i dont care about our financial status.
please lah hor,
you salary aint low,
i dont believe you have so many things to pay
i ask you why we keep have a lack in money
you tell me to shut up and dont care
but you keep telling me got nomoney
then what you want me to do.

i feel like erasing my memory.
become that happy happy kiddo
in K 2
now you know,
how long i've kept all these feelings from you.
i call u biased,
u call me ignorant and selfish.
whatever

what am i working so hard for.
its for YOU.
im stressing out myself for you
going insane over you.
sometimes i wish i really fainted
so i can have some minutes or hours of peace.

all i want,
is that little bit of love from you
encouragment from you.
but when u come back to Sg
you just bombard me with all the responsibilities
blame me for everything i've both done and not done.
i really dont know why im still hanging on.

my eyes are tired from tearing everyday.
my heart had enough of breaking and sores.
my shoulders are tired of the responsibilities they had to carry
my soul,
HAD ENOUGH.

i'm really tired,
bye.

Charlene(:
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Turning Away

You said you cared
You wanna be there
But you're messing with my heart
When everybody comes around
We're suddenly apart

So tell me where it’s going
Cuz I’m about to walk away
I would turn around if you asked me to stay

You just dont understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby I'm walking away

I dont know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When we're out, we're out together
But today you didn’t call
Last night really happened, boy
And again you made me fall

And how can you just do this?
It’s like I’m not even there
How hard could it be?
Just pretend like you care

You just don’t understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby, I’m walking away

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When I look into your eyes
I get this feeling
And I know it could be so right
Just want to be what's in your heart
I don’t care as long as I’m with you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

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