因为我一直都被遗忘，从不在你们心里。

just because i'm not doing anything,
dosen't means i don't feel anything.
just because i ain't popular or whatever,
i'm often forgotten,
never in the hearts of anybody.

you people can argue and say,
i have no idea how exactly lucky i am,
but have you guys ever felt what i felt?
so in what position are you to say im wrong about what i say?

i never needed pain ;
i never need hurt .

exactly what i feel .
i don't want any of that at all.
who wants them?

just because,
i sit at the corner in class,
its like as if i dont even exist there.
the class only has 40 pupils yup .
thrs no such person as register no. 2 in the class list.

25 may 2009,
was the last day you talked to me on msn,
27 april 2009,
was the last sms i received from you.
i didnt get any bday wishes from you,
of which i kept looking at my phone,
awaiting for the hope that never existed.

now you don't even come online,
don't bother to sms me,
let alone still make me sure,
that you still love me.

should i end us?
i really don't know.
whenever i tell others about this,
they keep telling me to do it.

tell me then,
if you even read my blog.
when you can blog about your f&n,
and be so happy.
and still facebook,
but you cant even come online or even send a sms?

you tell me uhs,
what am i supposed to do.
do you want me to send a sms saying:
"let's break up"?
seriously,
8 months and 11 days,
are you going to let go of that past of ours?
or were they just a mere memory to you,
of toying with a girl's feelings?
you lied to me time & time & again
i forgave you all the time.
but,
im running out of chances to give already.

i really,really want all this to stop.
i must have already gone insane.
using the centre of plastic wrap,
to hit myself over and over again,
when the red mark dissapears,
i hit it again to make it appear.
and i shouted at my arm,
"WHY AREN'T YOU BREAKING?
RED MARK ONLY, LIDDAT ONLY.
BREAK LA,
THEN I CAN GO HOSPITAL
FORGET ABOUT SCHOOL, LIFE EVERYTHING
JUST FOCUS ON THE PAIN IN THE BROKEN BONES."

i'm insane right?
that's the reason why i said on monday,
i was afraid of napfa,
in cause it was incline or wtv.
cause my arm totally lost strength,
and it hurt to just touch it.
yet i lied,
saying i banged my arm against something
stupid eh.

yeah, so i shouldn't be in the oh so wonderful class
2 commitment yup?
i ain't regarded as one anyway.

i don't wanna let the tears fall anymore.
cause i know,
there's no one i can cry into.

why?
why of why?
i must be getting depression.
i stare into space and keep thinking about stuff.
people think im staring at something.

my face is so pale,
i feel like i'm just seeing a me with a white mask.
collapsing soon i guess.

lifeless.
that's how i am now.

zequan said last time,
"i got see you smile b4 ma!"
but,
did you think,
it wasn't pure joy.
it was just to please you guys.
don't you people understand.
i don't smile for myself,
but for others.
pathetic.

forget it.
i'll stop degrading myself for now.
self pity.

gonna collapse soon.

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Turning Away

You said you cared
You wanna be there
But you're messing with my heart
When everybody comes around
We're suddenly apart

So tell me where it’s going
Cuz I’m about to walk away
I would turn around if you asked me to stay

You just dont understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby I'm walking away

I dont know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When we're out, we're out together
But today you didn’t call
Last night really happened, boy
And again you made me fall

And how can you just do this?
It’s like I’m not even there
How hard could it be?
Just pretend like you care

You just don’t understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby, I’m walking away

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When I look into your eyes
I get this feeling
And I know it could be so right
Just want to be what's in your heart
I don’t care as long as I’m with you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

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