i've just realised,
tht i've no one to turn to,
when i need to.
no one to share my feelings with,
whether im happy, sad, or angry.

i wonder,
whats friends?
i really dont know.
cause all of them dont seem to serve a purpose.
of which a friend should.
let alone a best friend.

you may be thinking:
"Oh, im her very good friends,
she cant possibly be talking about me"
reflect.
what have you done to show tht u are my friends?
nothing.

all the time,
im thr to listen to your woes,
to console you,
to be whatever you require at your times of need.
but,
i've received nothing,
when it applied to me.

everyone's leaving,
mum left for work overseas,
friends leaving,
love leaving.
this empty feeling;
i cant take it.

whrs tht love and concern,
i've always yearned for the past almost 5 years?
im just being used.
always used.
as something,
tht can be changed to whatever you need.
your consoler,
your punch bag,
your shoulder.
everything you need.
but for me,
you aint bothered.

seriously,
i dont understand,
why am i always the unfavoured one?
the odd one out.

i need friends,
tht understand wht i need.
the love and concern.
why is it so hard?

it comes naturally from me,
what about you?
have you people ever thought,
" am i being a friend to her?"

when im alone at home,
tht lonliness starts killing me.
making me shudder at times.
i cant bear to see the pathetic state,
me of no love.

everytime i look in the mirror.
i realised how pale i am.
its like i've no blood.
its so horrible.
tht i've to use foundation,
to cover up.
along with blushers,
so tht i dont look like im dead.

why?
why why why?
i know im detestable.
but i dont think all of us are perfect.

today,
alone at home.
made me realise,
how alone i was.
with no one to save me,
from this deadly hole im falling into/.

Charlene(:
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Turning Away

You said you cared
You wanna be there
But you're messing with my heart
When everybody comes around
We're suddenly apart

So tell me where it’s going
Cuz I’m about to walk away
I would turn around if you asked me to stay

You just dont understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby I'm walking away

I dont know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When we're out, we're out together
But today you didn’t call
Last night really happened, boy
And again you made me fall

And how can you just do this?
It’s like I’m not even there
How hard could it be?
Just pretend like you care

You just don’t understand
I wanna hold your hand
Why are you turning away
When did it get this hard
I didn't pick this card
Baby, I’m walking away

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

When I look into your eyes
I get this feeling
And I know it could be so right
Just want to be what's in your heart
I don’t care as long as I’m with you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

I don’t know why
I stand by you
The way I do
When you don’t care about me
It’s just not right, what you put me through
I can’t believe I ever fell for you

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