Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 11:41 PM Y
The story began like this...
MY
BLOG
IS
DEAD.
sheesh, i've nothing much to say.
bored to the max ):
& I'VE NOT BEEN OUT THROUGH THE WHOLE FXCKING HOLIDAY!
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-NESS.
i only went out for like,
swim twice, and loads of CO.
kns.
wht is this manzzzzzzzzzz.
why i didn't go out?
1. cause people keep pangseh-ing me, LAST MINUTE btw.
2. Singapore is boring, dont know where to go.
3. NO $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ T.T
4. cause nobody want go out with me.
5. cause my "DARH" is at her home jail , and we both no $$$$$$.
6. cause everytime plan okay liao people pangseh me and give me crappy reasons.
fk laaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhs.
and and ,
something just freaking weird just happened
my audi cpl pmed me o.o
after not talking for like 1 yr
and we didnt brk
ohwells,
then he strted saying he missed me and blah
and i was playing along cause i didnt want to hurt him by saying:
"it's been a year since we talked,
and i've actually stead and break with someone through tht year,
so feelings do change."
sheesh, i cant believe i used to talk to him like that
like EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
well,
i've guess i've change alot after meeting yk,
so yeahs.
i just didnt want to hurt him o.o
maybe cause i dont want to inflict hurt that was given to me before?
idk just some "instinct"
but i think he lied to me about his age and name
ughhhhh,
whatever lahhhhhhhh
he also said
" i thought u dont want me already T.T"
WHATHEHELLLLLLLL.
i nearly fainted.
den me and my "darh" faster escape audi
after he gtg.
-bad memory-
like wth,
after so long he tell me he miss/love wtv me
think i believe uh.
his msn pm still say "i've no regrets loving you"
i was still thinking who the you
then he said he missed me
GET REAL MAN.
LIKE I REALLY BELIEVE -.-
OKAY
ENOUGH RANTTTTTTTTTTTT.
ERASE ERASE ERASE ERASE~~~~~~~~~~~!
okay.
i was bored so i started meddling with bannedstory o.o
somehow i always do tht when im bored.
& i havent done any hw -.-
2 pics~
NO RIPPING OKAY, =="
rest all on fb album :D
lazy to resize :P
usually i make the pics to wht i feel
so yeah
just some random desire to do lol.
sigh.
HOMEWORK NOT DONE AT ALL.
WITH ALLTH BLOODY MATH EXERCISES.
OHMYGAWD.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
i just cant get into the mood to do hw la-.-
anw, i've been mapleing :D
lvl 45 Aran
imCUSTARD
add meeeeeeee~
but damn noob can
i max my triple swing instead of pole arm mastery.
WHATHEHELL.
sianed.
wtv la
nth else to say
BYEBYE.
*blog crawls out from layer of dust*
LOL.
randomness xD
Sunday, November 1, 2009 @ 10:01 PM Y
The story began like this...
i guess ,
i lie so much ,
tht i mix illusions with reality .
cause i know ,
we're not meant to be .
i'll really miss having you by my side ...
Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 6:16 PM Y
The story began like this...
i don't want to understand anything anymore.
cause i realised, when i understand stuff,
i just get even more hurt.
i'm just so sick and tired,
of all these crap that keeps coming my way.
ain't no one to rely on;
not even one.
if only they could be erased from my mind .
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 7:55 PM Y
The story began like this...
i never knew i looked stressed,
maybe i really need a break.
i'm used to these treatments
treating me like a toy
playing with my feelings.
fine.
i don't believe in saying the truth anymore
cause i just get even more hurt,
sorry xm,
i lied to you about my arm.
ur guess was right.
i keep lying
even just now.
mrs eng want me to go for stress management course.
yeah fine.
whatever.
maybe i look stressed
maybe im overly serious or mature
fine.
im always in the wrong.
but im also the one always lying,
to keep all of you from getting hurt.
maybe i've been trying too hard to please everyone
cause my efforts just show nothing.
yeah whatever.
im not as strong as all of you think.
don't judge me.
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:38 AM Y
The story began like this...
i've finally lost it .
i'm no longer the charlene you people know,
anymore.
Monday, September 7, 2009 @ 10:16 AM Y
The story began like this...
Love is always patient and kind ,
It is never jealous .
Love is never boastful or conceding ,
It is never rude or selfish ,
It does not take offence ,
And it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure ,
In other people’s sins ,
But delights and the truth.
It is always ready to excuse ,
To trust,
To hope,
And to endure,
Whatever comes.
Love is like the wind
you can't see it,
but you can feel it.
` quotes from A Walk To Remember .
something all of us ,
should know ,
to love , purely .
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 9:27 PM Y
The story began like this...
YEAH.
MY "FAMILY" MEMBERS ARE ALL BIASED.
AND IM THE ODD ONE OUT
UNFAVOURED ONE.
FUCK YOU.
MIGHT AS WELL DISOWN ME
SINCE NO ONE IN THIS "FAMILY" TRUSTS ME
WHY SHOULD I BE IN IT
FUCK LA
SO IN YOUR EYES
IM SOME PERSON WHO WOULD LOSE EVEN A LAPTOP.
FINE.
BE BIASED FOR ALL I CARE.
i thought you were the only one who wasn't biased.
now you showed your true colours lah.
fine.
now i knw i really have no one to turn to.
fuck.
you people just had to make me cry over again.
first my brother,
next my granma,
now my mum.
no more left.
i've got no one to turn to now.
fuck hell.
Monday, August 31, 2009 @ 7:22 PM Y
The story began like this...
keep doing maple pic nowadays
no idea why.
guess im reminiscing the past.
sigh.
suddenly,
i feel that i need to talk to you.
but i cant.
Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 10:52 PM Y
The story began like this...
very iritable nowadays.
dont provoke me.
lest i keep getting angry.
so if i am,
better not piff me off further.
Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 8:51 PM Y
The story began like this...
FUCK YOU BASTARD.
I DONT EVEN THINK YOU''RE MY EFFING BROTHER.
DUNO WHR U COME FROM
OTHERWISE IS THT IM THE ADOPTED ONE
COME FROM THIS WIERD FAMILY.
SCOLD MY BRO THROUGH THE DOOR
AHMA SCOLD ME
THT I SCOLD HER XIN GAN BAO BEI GRANDSON
HE HUMAN I NOT LA?
HE GOT EXAM I DONT HAVE LA?
HE WANT QUIET I DONT WANT LA?
NO HAPPY I NVR CLOSE DOOR
THEN LOCK THE DOOR
YOU THINK U BUY THE HOUSE ONE AR
U NOT HAPPY WITH THIS "SISTER" OF YOURS
THEN DISOWN ME FOR ALL I CARE
U WANT PEACE AND QUIET
YOU GO OUTSIDE THE STRRETS THR
THR VERY VERY QUIET
SLEEP ALSO NOBODY CARE YOU
NO NOISE NO NTH
THEN VERY HAPPY WHT.
CORRECT RIGHT.
THEN BLOODY GET UR FUCKING ASS OUTA THE HOUSE.
LIKE AS IF ITS U BUY ONE
U WANT TALK BIG U COME LA
U GOT THE RIGHTS TO LOCK THE DOOR MEH
I NOT HUMAN AR
I NO TEST AR
I NO EXAM AR
I NO STUDIES AR.
SO WHT U A LVL THIS YR
LIKE I FUCKING CARE?
U DONT EVEN STUDY CAN
UR LAPTOP SPOIL I STILL LEND U DESKTOP PLAY
THEN I WANT LAPTOP U DIE DIE ALSO DONT WANT LEND
LIEK AS IF EVERYTHING U BUY LIKE THT
FUCK LA
KNNBCB
THEN WHAT
AHMA START NAGGING
SAY ME AND U ILL BRED
THEN I SAY WHO TEACH ONE
SHE SAY MY MUM
THEN I SAY MY MUM WHO TEACH ONE
THEN SHE SAY I RUDE
WALAN EH
IS WHO SAY WHO ILL BRED FIRST
SHE NVR TEACH PROPERLLY THEN GRANDCHILDREN LIKE THT WHAT
EVERYTIME MY BRO FAULT
I KANA SCOLDED
SAY I SELFISH
TREAT HIM UNFAIR
PLS LOR
WHO IS THE ONE WHO'S SO BIAS
FOOD ALSO GIVE BRO
THEN I BO LUNCH
THEN I HAVE TO MAKE MYSELF
ALL THIS
I NVR COMPLAIN TO MY MUM,
SHE STILL DARE SAY I ILL BRED.
PLS LOR, U NOT HAPPY THEN DONT TAKE CARE OF US LA
TELL MUM HIRE MAID
U GO BACK TO UR PRECIOUS SON
UR VERY VERY RICH SON LA
FUCK YOU.
I DONT EVEN THINK YOU'RE MY BRO.
U DONT EVEN ACT LIKE ONE
U WANT WHAT, I GIVE WHAT
I WANT WHAT,
U DONT GIVE
SO LIKE THT CALLED SELLFISH LA?
FUCK LA
SO WHT IF MY MUM IS BACK
SHE DONT EVEN KNOW THT IM SUFFERING IN SG
I CRY FOR ALL I CARE
AHMA ALSO DONT CARE
NOBODY BOTHERS TO CARE ABT ME
TELL ME DONT CRY
I ABUSE MYSELF
AHMA ALSO CAN SEE
YET SHE STILL WALK AWAY
LIKE A TRANSPARENT
DOESENT IT BRK HER HEART THAT HER HRANDAUGHTER IS HURTING EHRSELF.
FURTHERMORE,
I HURT MYSELF CAUSE OF HER
WHO SHE THINK SHE IS
ALL SHE IS
IS A GUARDIAN
SHE DONT EVEN CARE ABT MY FEELIGNS
EVERYTIME SAY SHES THE ONE AT DISADVANTAGE
PLS LA HOR
WHO BULLY WHO SIA
SO WHT IF U DO CHORES EVERYDAY
LIKE AS IF
I DUN WANT HLP LIKE THT
I GOT SAY DONT WANT MEH
THEN NOW,
FUCKING BRO UNLOCK DOOR
BUT HOW I GO IN?
WHEN HE'S STILL FUCKING INSIDE
WTH
WTH
NOBODY CARES ANWS
FUCK LAH
BLOODY HELL
我受够了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, August 24, 2009 @ 7:07 PM Y
The story began like this...
made a song :D
` Falling Heart ♥ -chorus
Falling;
but nobody catches me.
Why do
I have to endure this?
I've had
enough hurt to last me
all my life~
I'm deep and down inside,
though my face don't show a sign
my heart's breaking
but nobody's picking the pieces
of my heart~
of my heart~
:D
nice nice???
xD
I KEEP SINGING THIS SONG!
LOL.
SO PROUD OF MYSELF.
._.
but its not finished=.=
ahhhh.
INSPIRATIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
D:
Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 9:38 PM Y
The story began like this...
i feel so sick and wrong now.
cause idk wht im feeling.
LOL.
STUPID BLOGGER.
irritating
ARGHHHHHHHHH.
D:
k,
enough crap.
byebye.
:D
Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 4:47 PM Y
The story began like this...
Sunday, August 9, 2009 @ 1:58 PM Y
The story began like this...
I NEED MESOSSSSSSSSSSSS.
ugh, seriously broke.
stupid mana pots.
zzz.
someone sponser me can?
T.T
AHHHHHHHHHHH D:
xdellusionx
comeon people~
be a kind soul~
:X
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 7:15 PM Y
The story began like this...
quiz for update.
blogger finally came to its senses :D
1.Who was your last txt from?
xiaomin.
2.Where was your default picture taken?
er..june? idk.
3.Your relationship status?
single. but scarred.
4.Have you ever lost a close friend?
of course.
5.What is your current mood?
tired.
6.How many siblings do you have?
One, though i dont want to admit it.
7.What's your bro/sis's name?
Clarence.
8.Where do you wish you were right now?
with my mum and spending time tgt, not having her to be in hk all the time.
9.Have a crazy side?
what do you think?
10.Ever had a near-death experience?
yup.
11.Something you do alot?
getting angry? emo every day LOL.
12.Angry at anyone?
of course.
13.What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
ahem. i just broke up not long ago. unsure of how my heart feels now.
14.When was the last time you cried?
errr.. 6 july?
15.Is there anyone you would do anything for?
my family.
16.What do you think about when you're falling asleep?
how would i know?
17.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
MRS ENG! LOLLLLLLLLLLLL.
"hello? charlene? mrs eng here. are you okay?
you on mc ah?
how many days?"
& so on.
then i couldnt slp anymore D:
18.What's your fav. song?
always changes.
19.What are you doing right now?
doing this quiz?
20.Who do you trust right now?
only my mum.
friends gives me reasons not to trust them.
21.Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
forgot.
22.Have you kissed someone in the past week?
no.
23.Who is your friend who lives closes to you?
margaret, sebastian, shermain.
24.Describe your life in one word.
pathetic, unique in a bad way.
25.Who are you thinking of right now?
going to the doc to get more mc.
26.What should you be doing right now?
studying, or resting. stupid h1n1.
27.What are you listening to?
tv.
28.Who was the last person who hug u?
mum, last month.
29.Who was the last person who yelled at you?
granma, the whole day.
30.Do you act differently from the person you like?
dont know.
31.What's your natural hair colour?
brownish black.
32.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
granma, when she asked me to eat mo pi ko instead of pi pa ko!
how to eat medi for mosquito bites!
33.Who was the last person to make you sad?
many.
34.What do you hear?
tv.
35.Is your hair curly or straight?
straight, but curls at the ends.
36.Has anyone called you "scrumptious" before?
NO.
37.Do you have a best friend[s]?
dont know.
38.Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
past three days, no.
last person, JINGZHI. LOLLLLLLLLLLL.
during pe on fri when playing the wtv game.
39.Do you use smiley faces on the com?
not really.
40.Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
NO. dont even have one.
41.Are you happy with life right now?
asking the obvious.
42.Are you currently jealous?
dont think so.
43.What jewelry are you wearing now?
earsticks.
44.What were you doing on friday night?
forgot.
45.Have you ever had your heart broken?
of course.
46.Have you ever broken someone's heart?
no.
47.Is there anyone your really disappointed in now?
definitely.
48.What was the last reason you went to the doc for?
H1N1! lol, jkjk.
fever, cough,sore throat, body ache, back ache,dizzyness, headache!:D
49.How late did you stay up last night and why ?
10, looking through smses and feeling sad cause of memories.
50.Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
almost. but he broke it.
okays, done here.
UPDATED ALR AH!
cnt say i didn't.
:D
